I don't know why I read this again and again, if I have to stop in the middle because it hurts too much. I keep wanting to leave one of this gigantic comments that quote 3847283 lines but a few paragraphs in my brain just turns to mush and Feelings and mental keyboard smashes, and so all I can say is that I am still reccing this to everyone who will hear me and that I have it in all my mems and bookmarks and that I think it's one of the best fics in the fandom; all of that even though I've only finished it once in the many times I started reading it - not reading it because I want to finish it, because I've finished it already, re-reading it because it's so damn good. You're amazing, okay.